Something from nothing

OK its been along time since i blogged & i apologize for that. Even typing this i don't know what I'm gonna talk about hence the title something from nothing. I suppose i will find something as i go on. I know its been a busy time for many of us and will continue to get more and more hectic but have faith, stay strong and remain calm. Time to SG and GH.

OK so I'm actually at a stage were I'm actually fed up with the females that surround me ones who fall into the category "Potentials". See potential is a dangerous entity to possess. It brings about complacency, arrogance and basically trouble.

Recently I've been wasting my time around a lot of female company that in all honesty has not been worth the trouble. The sad thing is that i cant get back my wasted time, i cant recoup the seconds, hours and minutes that i spent with someone who wasn't apart of my future and use it to continue my search for my final destination. Obviously your not gonna find the one straight away and the phrase "the one" is probably drenched in obscurity as you'll probably find your "one" after searching through one hundred.

I'm continually disappointed by females; just when you think your gonna find one that's an exception to the rule they prove to be the rule of exception. I kept thinking to myself, "when am i gonna catch a break?" "Lord when are you gonna give me my Lauren London?" lol.

I know i shouldn't go searching for anything and that my time will come. Moreover as Ive said before the current crop of fruit in my garden is not acceptable. There's no one that I'm serious about that i think "Yeah i could take her home to meet momma". In fact there's no one I'm really serious about. OK there is one, she probably knows who she is but its jus not gonna happen because it wont.

Now looking at what i just wrote if someone said that to me i would argue back and say "MAKE IT HAPPEN" or "TAKE A CHANCE". But when you've been denied a chance to prove yourself by the most frivolous of reasons you kinda lose hope.

If you know me then you'll constantly here me say "I'm lowing girls for a while concentrating on work/uni etc" but the sad reality of it is that females are my downfall and will always will be until i can learn to control my feelings. With little regret i probably over appreciate Gods delicate work in producing such a fine species down to the very last inch of every single curve. Women are to be admired and to be loved, yet the same thing must be remembered about males. We wanna be loved we wanna be admired and needed.

If you were to look through my eyes and obtain my perception you would see that my life resembles a Lionel Richie music video.

"I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?"

I just want you to notice that I'm noticing you. But your blinded and fail to see me. ( On a side not, the whole video showed an inappropriate relationship lol my man was a teacher tryna seduce a student. But the basis was there.)

I really don't know what else i can do. Every time i feel like giving up another one of you comes along and seduces my mind with the idea of hope, flirts with my thoughts with the notion of happiness.

I need to get a grip. Relationships are not the be all and end all of life. In fact you enter this world alone and you leave it alone yet in between you surround yourself with people that hopefully will make your exit and entrance worth the solo trip.

So what do you do? What do I? What do i do when i decide i like you?

Its like everything you want i can give you yet you wanna go elsewhere and then complain that you aren't happy. I could give you something. I can turn your nothing and make it into something.

I'm gonna try and sum up this whole blog with one phrase i know everyone likes to drop them like Rev Run lol.

"You can love and you can live but if you don't learn, learn to love living, then you will move like leaves with the wind. Dead forgotten unloved"

"Hello"

God Bless You Bloggers, Wherever you are.